Confused…
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…and a bit frustrated.
If I’m gonna quit school now, I have to move too. I think. I’m not really sure on that, but I think I have to. Anyways, I want to move. I’m like a nomad; I can’t stay in one place for a very long time, I get restless and bored.
But the thing is; Where? With who? How? What am I to do there? AND SO ON.
If my mom and sisters had lived somewhere else, I’d move in with them! But I can’t stand the place they live in, it’s too little, there’s nothing to do up there and it’s just too much crap going on up there. I love them with all my heart, but the place sucks.
And I cannot, in any situation, move back to my dad’s. No. Nooot gonna happen. He doesn’t want to, I sure as hell don’t want to, and they don’t have enough room. I’ve got the taste of living alone, and I like it. Of course, I can live with other people, but… No, I can’t move back to my dad’s place. I just can’t.
So me and my best friend discussed the idea of me and her moving in together, in another city. We agreed on a lot, and I was, and still am, all in on it. She’s not sure yet, but I hope she’s still in on it. If we get an appartment, this could really work.
And the best part, no one in my family wants me to move! Or quit school! GHAA. I hate disappointing people, but that’s probably what I’ll spend my life doing.
-MK
You know what I want to do?
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Sorry, more whining coming up!
I want to work in a BAR. Am not kidding! I actually want to work in a bar. I want to move from this city to another, get an awesome appartment with another awesome person, change my name, grow a whole new image and I want to work in a bar. It’s either that, or take an overdose of some drug or get hit by a bus or something like that.
Because I am sick and tired of everything. And now I’m gonna say something very serious. I sat on the bus today. From Sandnes to Madla. It takes about 45 minutes. And all I could think about, was how many pills it would take to a) put me in a serious coma or b) kill me.
It was aaaall I could think of!
What is that?!
-MK
Fast forward.
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I wish I could skip the next chapter in my life.
No, not the next, but several chapters.
I’ve just watched two drama movies, and all I’m left with is a headache, a new playlist and a wish.
I wish my life was OK.
Not that it isn’t, but MY kind of OK. As in me having my own appartment, a good job, good habits and the best friends in the world just a phonecall away. Of course, the last one I already have, but the rest is what I’m missing. I want to be finished with this craphole I’m in now! I’m tired of everything! Studies is on the top of the list.
I want to have a job that makes me happy, gives me something to do most of the day, and makes it possible for me to pay my bills and at the same time have fun. If I’m stuck in a shop for the rest of my life, then FINE! As long as I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in, and a life, I’m fine! And people.
I need a person in my life.
The problem is, that person, it could be anyone! But I’m too scared to try looking. And I miss my friends. I want to have a year or five where I live with one of my best friends and just live!
Man, this sucks!
-MK
IN THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS HOLY….!!
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We must slay the ebil dustbunnies! - Once said by a very wise woman.
Now. I’m home. I’ve just been working for about 8 hours and 30 minutes. Standing straight, walking around, smiling and talking politely to everyone. Laughing and fried my brain with calculating. Which I’m bth, not very good at.
Anyways, I’m so tired I feel like I’m dying. I was not supposed to work alone this very fine evening, but I did. And there was LOTS of people. Even though me and Boss predicted there wouldn’t be that much, it was. So I’m not doing that again. Well, I won’t do it again very soon. Someone else can go next time.
Back to work issue. Since there was a whole lot of people, and I’m crappy at preoritizing stuffs, I had WAY too much to do when I closed the store. So I missed my first bus. Stressing to get the second, I missed that one too. AGH, I thought, I’m getting the next one! It’s the last bus going my way tonight!
…
I missed the bus. By then, I was so tired I didn’t even care. I’d walk home if I had to. All I wanted was my bed. But then I remembered; I have a friend. An awesome and slightly feminin, stupid friend, whom loves me a lot. So I hoped for the best, and I called him. HE WAS AWAKEEE. And sober! 
Oh happy day! I hate asking about people picking me up. I just can’t stand it. Seriously. But the thought of that one hour walk home made my feet cry, so I asked my very good friend if he had the time and energy to pick me up. And he said; I’ll be right there.
So now I’m home. My feet hurts, and I think I’m smelly. Don’t want to check. But now, I’m gonna go into the bathroom, remove my make-up and contacs, rip out all the hairgribs stuck in my hair, then find a huge t-shirt, and then, finally; get in my bed.
Buh-bye then. CYAH!
-MK
Cleaning.
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Ohohohohoo… I feel like I don’t do this very often. Since I’m a person who draws alot, I stuff drawings EVERYWHERE. But now the last year or two, I ‘ve stuffed them into a box with alot of other crap. And now I’ve cleaned my room. Fixed my paperwork and all that, so I thought I’d take a peep into my box. And holy crap. SO MUCH OLD THINGS.
Not that they were pretty either. Old and ugly. Ewww… xD
But I did not onøy find drawings in the box, but some books I had in my previous school (06-09). Lots of interesting reading there! I got to know that I actually pierced my tongue the 4th of February in 2008! I’ve had my precious piercing for 2 years in one week!
I also found my old schooldiaries. FUN. All back to 07. When I still had my major crush on a friend of mine 
And then I found two pictures. One of my entire class, from 07, and then one pic of me and my best friend, taken in a photobox in Rome
Am now gonna try to make sense of my drawings, put them in a folder instead of a box
Buh-bye! - MK
Mentalcase?
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I actually want to go out jogging, but I can’t. The day when I FINALLY get the energy and motivation to it, I CAN’T. Due to heavy rain earlier today, and then the lack of a grade above the - O, the roads are covered in ice. If I went out jogging now, I’d probably fall and brake something I do not want broken. And it sucks. Because I really want to go out for a good run. *sob*
My boys….!! <3
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FINALLY!
I’m drawing again! I don’t remember, did I mention that before? That I’ve been unable to draw anything for quite a while now? Well, the flow is back and I’m drawing like a crazy person. I’m trying to change my style of drawing so I’ve been reading A LOT of different mangas these days, both to get inspiration and to find new lines I can use. Found this one manga with pretty rough lines, which I like, and I tried it. It was goood xD
Here’s the last one I drew today 
It’s the first couple of twins I drew. Think I’ve had them for like… two to three years or something. I don’t know, and I don’t care, ‘cus I LUUUUUVH THEEEM. <3
Yes, I am strangely enough very tied to my characters. They are little pieces of me. Believe it or not. If you are drawing, you should know what I’m talking about. 
Anyways, I just wanted to post a quick update, telling I’m starting to come back to life here xD
-MK
Menstrual boobs.
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YEAH YOU HEARD ME!!
I have them. Menstrual boobs. Tits, breasts, boobies, female bodyparts, WHATEVER. You don’t know what they are? Menstrual boobs? I’ll tell you. Menstrual boobs are something you get before and during sometime in you menstrual cycle. I don’t get them that often (THANK GOD!) but HELLO how they kill me when they are here?!?!!?
I can’t walk fast!
Sorry about the theme, but I just needed to get that out of my system. Seriously, sorry >.<
Is currently very frustrated. And annoyed. Period finally arrived, almost a week late, and I just CAN’T draw. And me not being able to draw is baaaaaaaaaaaad. It’s like a glass, and there’s water dripping into it, and finally, over some time, the water will fill the glass and it’ll pour over.
And oh meh gods, my English is like shit for the time being. Again, SORRY for bad blogging! Is distracted by boys and pain in lower part of body 
NAH NIGHT NOW. -MK
Ahahahahaa xD
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Happyface
It appears that I actually passed my exam! Oh meh Gods, I’m so happy right now xD
And I’m currently hooked on CSI New York. Man, that series is AWESOME. Makes me want to both cry, laugh and scream in fear, all at the same time!! Not to mention the characters Danny Messer and Don Flack. HILARIOUS FFS XD And gorgeous!
Will continue watching now, just had to put in a short update
Buh-byee!
-MK
Women!
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We, women, have got to be the most beautiful thing God (if there is one) has ever created. The female sex. We have the gift of bringing another life to this world. A new LIFE!! That is a very good thing we’re doing! Without us, the human race would die out! Of course, we need men to make this life happen, but it’s just a very tiny part of a man we need. I’m sure we’d find a way to bring more babies to this world even without men, if we had the chance.
Yet, even though we’re this awesome, pretty and smart; WHY, FOR ALL THAT IS PURE AND SACRED IN THIS WORLD, DO WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS EVERY SINLGE MONTH?!!??!!?!?
The PMS. Or the menstrual cycle. I hate iiit.. It makes me eat too much, cry too much, write all this crap, and most of all, it makes me feel like my insides are having fun with knives. And they’re not good at it.
It hurts like hell. AND I’m four days late.
So now I’m gonna eat the rest of my food, watch an episode of CSI New York and then, pouting and drugged on painkillers, GO TO BED.
-MK
ITS BAAACK :D
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I thought it was dead!! D:
I couldn’t even go to blog.com! Man, was I stressed!!
But now it’s back
-MK
EMONESS INCOMING; Is having a mental breakdown.
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I just left class.
I’m sitting in my bed at home, have just cried away my make-up, and I’m really supposed to be in class. I’m supposed to sit at the right end of the front line in class, paying attention to what my teacher says as she was my God. But I do not believe in Gods. And now I don’t believe in me as a student.
I HATE THIS.
I hate being this crying, fat girl who thinks she can’t do anything. Even though it’s true, I still hate it. I sat there, in the classroom, ready. I was on time, had my notebook and pen ready, comfortable clothes, and I was ready for class. Ready for school. But no. The teacher was talking to us before the class had really started, and I liked her. She’s outgoing, British, funny and appearently a very good teacher. More people arrived, cursing the lack of parkingspace, late busses and trains, but they were ready too. Ready for school. Class started, and it seemed fine, we got some questions, discussed and then the teacher continued talking. School stuff.
And then it hit me; I do not want this. I love English, I really do, but I don’t want this. I do not want to study English for the rest of my life. What am I going to do with that? NOTHING!! Right there and then, I knew I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry my eyes out and leave. Or just leave and then start crying once I got home. So, I waited for the break, and then I left. I got my jacket, walked down to the bus stop, and got on to the bus and went home. On my way up the stairs in my building, the tears came. And they didn’t stop until I started writing this crap. Why am I crying? Because I don’t know what else to do. I am a failure! A disappointment to the world! I SUCK!!
I want to move, change my sex, have 5 jobs, become one of those people who become pregnant for other people who can’t get pregnant, be murdured, become braindead and save a lot of other people with my organs, ANYTHING but school. I am so sick of not knowing what I want with my life, it’s making me sick of life itself.
Is it possible for me to go to a hospital and ask them to make me braindead so that they can take all my organs and all my blood? I can help saving a lot of other people’s lives with my entire body. Why should I have my life, when I don’t even want it? Then it’s just fair to give it to someone else, right?
Right?!
I’m fat…
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…and my male best friend is a slipper. A shoe you wear to keep your feet warm inside your house. A “tøffelhelt” as we say in Norwegian. He’s that good guy everybody likes, he harms no one, but he has NO GUTS WHAT SO EVER. And when it comes to my best friend, that sure as hell is annoying!
Say, if you really liked someone, you’ve already told them that you like them, and you really want to kiss this person. No matter what the other person says, you will kiss him/her!
Well, I’m like that. If I want something that’s very available, I’ll get whatever the cost.
But not this guy! He tried to hold my hand as we were watching some series on my computer, but I was so darn warm so I ignored it. Or, I actually pushed him away. I can’t stand sticky hands >.< And then, when he was leaving, I knew he wanted to kiss me goodbye, because he’d already told me that he wanted that. So, I decided to test him.
(The time we actually were a couple, I had to do all the work, but if he wanted to try something now, he’d have to do it himself! Show me you actually want it!)
But nooo… No spine at all. He was moving slowly torwards the door, me and my big ass were sitting on the floor, riiight next to his feet, but nothing. If he was a real man, and actually wanted to kiss me, he’d yank me up, or at least told me to get the f*** up from the floor, and then kiss me!
But no. you might think I sound disappointed, well, I AM. I like kissing. I like him, but only as a dear friend, but we’ve kissed before, and there’s nothing weird going on between us. He get’s girls all the time, and he’s telling me all about it. And I don’t care. I do the same thing as he does. (Yes, both girls and boys, people!) And hopefully, he doesn’t care.
Totally random rant here, but I needed to get it out of my system. He’s got no balls! I am actually more masculine than him from time to time!! D: (Psychological, ofc…!)
Bah.
- MK
It’s bad.
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Really bad. Reaaallllyyyyyy baaaaaaaaaaad.
I’m totally hooked on Miley Cyrus’ music and the show Hannah Montana. The music because it’s fun and entertaining, and the show… well, it’s really the same there. It’s actually very funny xD
Anyways
I’m going home the day after tomorrow, and I haven’t even started on the packing yet. So, yeah. I’m screwed. Going to help mum and granddad at work tomorrow, and then it’s back at mums and start packing, have to make everything ready; purse, backpack, big bag, food, clothes, EVERYTHING. *stressed*
And did I mention that my sister is being a total bitch these days? xD
Omg, I feel like she’s pissed off every single day. Her boyfriend is on a visit here now, so I’m guessing she’s pretty busy 
I’m glad we managed to keep the fighting away. Of course, we haven’t always agreed with eachother, but at least we haven’t made a big thing out of it
As that is said, I have a confession to make. This is the really bad part.
I have not, the previous year and it’s occations, have had ANY of the following; Christmas or New Years Eve celebration spirit. NOTHING. It could have been another regular day for all I knew. I didn’t feel any Christmas spirit at all. And it’s weird! Because I’ve always been all Christmas-ish when the time was here. But not this time.
And I’ve not been able to draw
Maybe it’ll all come once I get home? Mabeh?
Oh, I’m really looking forward to get back. It’s not that I don’t like it here, no God, I love my family D: It’s just there is nothing to do here, and it’s so LITTLE! I’m used to live in a city with traffic and noises everywhere, busses and people I don’t know nor care about, and I like it!
Over to something elllssseeee…..
MOVIESSSSSSS!!
I’ve been nerding in front of the computer the last few weeks, (and gained way too much weight) and got to see some of the many movies I’ve got on my computer. Among them; Angels and Demons, Alien VS Predator, Jennifer’s Body and a few more. Good movies
And now I’ve run out of things to write about. TTYL!
-MK
Geez
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Long time no see! I’ve been busy being the best big sister, so nothing to post xD
So, I just thought I’d step in and say to everyone;
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Have an awesome celebration and good luck with everything in 2010!
-MK
Emoness.
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I’m grasping for air.
It feels like my body has forgotten how to breathe.
I suck in amounts of what feels like poison, and try to calm down.
It can’t be.
It’s not true.
It just can’t happen like this.
It just can’t be..!
Am totally overreacting, but hello. This is serious suckyness going on here.
I FAILED MY FUCKING EXAM. F-A-I-L-E-D.
And my teacher seems to have disappeared into thin air, that bitch.
But my overreaction-ness is due to this being my first failure EVER. I’ve never, ever failed on an exam! Tests in High School, ooh yes, but that’s crap anyways! You can get your grade up just by being active in class ffs. But this exam was in University, and I failed.
Am stressed du to me not having any fucking idea of what to do with life now. I know I don’t want to study more books, listen to more teachers talking about stuff I’m not really getting etc. I’m sick of school, sick of life in general, really.
Thinking of moving to England or something and study drama or travelling or something like that. Completely new and fresh. But then the thoughts come back; am I good enough? Can I do this? Am I going to fail in this too? Should I take High School over again?
Blargh. Life sucks.
-MK
PS: AND I’VE GAINED 2KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *kills self*
Early morning.
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My hair smell of sigarettes, my breath of puke and booze, I’ve had the hic-ups since 01 am, I can’t really walk straight, to drink water (which I am in need of doing) has to be through a straw, and it feels like I have a gross lump in my throath.
In conclution: I was out drinking yesterday xD
And I got DRUNK. The whole thing, puking and sleeping on the bathroom, yelling to annoying people, (or it was really just one xD) and sooo ooonnnnh…. Is very embarrased, should’ve been able to control myself a bit more, but then again nooo
I just wish my head would stop swirling. It’s making me sick again xD
So, is now drinking a lot of water, and trying to eat.
TTYL.
-MK
Bloggin’
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I’m heeereeee!
Am now sitting in sofa at mum’s place with very much agruing sisters. Oh, joy xD Pissed off 7year old pisses off 15year old. WHIIIIHU~UU! Trying to fix this is pretty much impossible.
But then mum got home from work, and after a little more arguing, things finally settled down
Am now going to go bother my littlesister, whom I love so much <3
D-Day
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Departure day.
It’s now only three hours until I leave my home and travel for one and a half day by train and plane (lol) to visit my mum and my sisters for Christmas. Hurraaaaah!
I woke up 05:30am this morning with the WORST headache ever! I was like “Nooooo!!! Why is body punishing me this early?” I mean it, I woke up BECAUSE of the headache. But then I started thinking. I only get a really bad headache when I haven’t eaten in a while, so that my sugar is low, causing the badness. And then it came to me. I ate at 05:00 pm yesterday. So, about 13 hours without food? The headache does now make sense.
So I got up. At 05-freakin’-30 in the morning. And I ate, made the baguettes I’m going to bring on my trip ready, and I did the dishes. But the headache was still there! So now I got pissed and grabbed a candy (really high on the sugar, here!) and went to bed again. Fell asleep after a while, and slept for three hours.
And woke up with the same headache. Just not as bad this time. So now I’ve shoved down a few more slices of bread and all I feel now is sick. Blargh. Food doesn’t tempt me at all.
Maybe it’s the expactations of me leaving? The exitement is ruining my ability to eat? xD Who knows
Maah, I really can’t think of anything else to blog about today. I’ll go fix my hair now, and pack a few more things and then find a way to make the time go faster
-MK
Wednesday.
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I was supposed to go do my the rest of my Christmas shopping with my stepmum today, but my little sister has got the swineflu, so she couldn’t come. *sob*
Was annoyed, but of course I understand. Ended up going by my self, but there was so much sales on shoes and other stuff I don’t need but want that I hurried to find those darn gifts and got the hell out of there xD So after that I went to stepmum and family to get rid of fresh bought Christmas gifts. Spent a little time with my little brother (my savior!), watching him playing WoW, which can be very entertaining
Am nw so tired I could fall asleep standing. But I have to tidy my room before taking a shower and THEN get to bed. Have to go to work tomorrow. And tomorrow it’s only 5 days untill I leave for my holiday!
And I also bought a new pair of slippers today. They were so cute, I just couldn’t resist. Hello Kitty, but what the hell.
SO CUTE.
Anyways. Cleaning to do. Buh-bye….!
-MK
New computaaah :D
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Oh happy day! I’m so incredibly happy that my brother is a genius when it comes to computers and programs, I could cry. My oh so crappy computer has now been reborn!
Three things though:
- I do no longer have all my bookmarks in Mozilla. But what the heck. I’ll get new ones
- I do no longer have PhotoShop! *sob*
…
And now I can’t remember what the last thing was. Anyways. Am a little hungry and way past my bed time. Should get to sleep though, have school thingie tomorrow, gonna make some money!
And then I’ll get back to crappy appartment and fold clothes and install more needed programs :]
Oh! One more thing! Not about awesome computer, but Mr. Awesome! He is no more!
Does feel like a coldhearted bitch when reading this. but it’s the truth! Cannot for any reason in the world handle nagging men. OH NOES.
Now I will go kill hair and face and then get some sleep.
-MK
Downtime.
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I don’t understand where it’s coming from, maybe it’s my PMS fucking with me, but I’m really down. Just sad for no reason. I want time to move faster, so that I can leave for my vacation, I want time to move faster so that I can get away from my life a little. I think I need it.
I’m going to work today and tomorrow, and then I have 3 days off before I’m working Thursday to Sunday next week. It’s going to be so goddamn stressful and exhausting I might cry, but at least I have something to do! And I make money. So after those dreadful days I have one day to fix my room and foods and stuff, and then pack. That’s nice. I wonder if I’m going to be able to leave my suitcase alone till then. I doubt it xD
And I need to cut and color my hair. And do something else but blogging right now.
-MK
Exams, chopsticks and munchies.
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Oh my gods. I don’t think my brain has realized it yet. Nor it being prepared enough for what’s coming.
My Exam.
It’s tomorrow. And since I’m a sucker student, I’m sure I haven’t read enough for the big day. D Day. But I’m always like that. I’m a poor student. I read like crazy, do all the exercises and everything, but nothing sticks. I managed to pass the midterm assignment only by paying attention in class. So, now that I’ve read more about everything and paid just as much attention to class, I’m pretty relaxed right now. There’s nothing more I can do. Bury myself in grammar books the night before the test is nonsense, if you ask me. If I hadn’t read anything at all, that is what I’d be doing right now. But I have read! I’ve done what I can, so the only thing I can do now is try to relax, digest all the rice I’ve eaten today, and then try to get some sleep.
The reason I’ve written “Munchies” in the title is due to the fact that I had thins INSANE craving for ice cream today. It was sickening!! After walking around sniffing chocolate for about 5 minutes and then staring at huge buckets for ice cream for a while, I got to my senses and bought a few pieces of crispbread instead. Felt pretty good after that, actually xD
But holy crap, that craving was insane. Insaaaane, I say! It was so bad!
I ended up buying two pairs of shoes (Skaters!! Finally!!!!), a new wire for my internet connection, Christmas present for my best friend, and some food. And now I’ve got a headache. It’s sort of weird, since I’m using them to prevent headaches, but I actually get pretty bad headaches when I use my glasses. I don’t know why, maybe it’s the difference in strength between the glasses and the contacts that confuses my brain, I don’t know. All I know is that it’s annoying
Oh, since I haven’t blogged in a while, I’ll blurt out some very random things today;
- I’ve finally got my precious iPhone <3
- My hair is starting to get reeeeally long now xD It’s kind of weird, I haven’t had this length in like, almost four years, so it’s.. unusual for me
- I’m totally hooked on eating with chopsticks these days.
And I’ve eaten way too much rice this afternoon. Feel like a fat cow right now XD With a bad breath and a unusual messy hairdo. Anyways. I’ve used the last 3 hours glued to my screen, (probably the reason to my headache) watching Sex and the City. I really wish I had hair like Jessica Parker. I looooove her hair. And I loooove that series. I’m way too girly these days.
Oh, I totally fell off here. I don’t know what more to write about. And I really feel like getting drunk right now >.<
-MK
Faarckh.
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My version of the curse word, or as my grammar book says; “taboo word”: fuck. I say farckh. With the “H” sound xD
Anyways. Just felt like blogging. It’s now 22 minutes over midnight, which means there’s 16 days to my departure!! *happyface*
And there’s 5 days till my dreaded exam. Gosh. But 5 days, and then I’m freeeeeeeeee : D
So, my day was pretty good. Started with sleeping till noon, which was great, I really needed that for some reason. And then I left home to visit Egersund, where me and my best friend went to this great Chinese Restaurant and ate thereee.. On the way I though I’d pick up my lovely new phone, but noo. It hadn’t arrived. So I’ll either wait till Monday, or maybe I’ll be inpatient as I always am an get it either tomorrow night or on Sunday. Either way, if I don’t pick it up, I’ll have to wait until Monday. We’ll see.
So! During our dinner, we decided to go see some of our friends, who happened to be in the city at the same time as we :] And on the read we went. We saw the others, and had a blast. I ended up coming with them to the movies, where we watched the new movie “Fame” which was pretty great.
I love musicals/music and dancing movies. : D
After the movie I went to my dad’s and gave him the money I owe him, and while I waited for the next train to arrive, I stayed and talked a little with my awesome step mum <3
And even though it doesn’t look like it, I actually did study a little today. I’ve got one hour to kill on the train to and from, so that’s when I read :]
So! That’s about it. A great day. Will use tomorrow to do nothing but stay in bed and watch Bleach with best bud, and IF he’s got a date in the evening, I’ll go get my iPhone <3 <3 : D
NIGHTNIIIGHT!!
-MK
I hate you for being so…
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…perfect for me.
Of course I’m talking about Mr. Awesome. When I’m down or bored, he does whatever he can to bring me up again. He’s so nice, so thoughtful, funny and just awesome. And gorgeous. So much it makes me ill just to think of leaving him. I may have mentioned this before, but WHY do I meet the perfect guy when there’s a time limit? WHY is he only staying here for three months, when I think he should stay here forever? Why… *sob*
I like him so much. He actually sang to me today, he was only joking with me, but he sang. The lamest Norwegian lyrics ever, but he looked at me and sang about my eyes, my smile and my voice. How much he’d melt if someone sang that for him. I’ve been in total emo-mode the last few days, to everything on my play list has been under the genre of metal/rock/punk. So I laughed at him when he sang. Part of me being embarrassed and part me not liking Norwegian music that much.
Am now listening to Brian Littrell, one of the guys from BSB, singing “Gone without Goodbye” from his solo album. Genre: Christian Pop. But his voice is so pretty, so I had to have that album.
Here’s a link to the song. I know I’m lame, but it’s just pretty and comforting to listen to. He’s a proud Christian, and I have nothing to believe in.
Brian Littrell - Gone Without Goodbye
One more thing. I think I managed to piss off my best friend today. Piece of cake, I piss off people without even knowing it all the time. I’m naive and stupid and have pretty much zero social skills. But awh. She’s struggling with a lot of stuff, and all I do is being a nuiscance. Go me….! So this is what I do. I try to help her with what she’s asking and I really try to think of something, but my mind is blank. So what I do after throwing in a few bad ideas, is telling her how bad she’s at prioritizing school, and it’s her own fault that she’s in trouble. It’s true, but my god, stupid! Some things I really should keep to myself, but my brain goes “Nooo, just say it! She knows you, she won’t be mad!”
Of course she’ll be mad. I’m her best friend, and I’m acting like an ass.
Luckily, I just spoke to her on the phone, and it seems we both had a bad day today. I hope she kicks ass on the assignment, and that I do the same on the exam. I can’t wait to be done with it. Then I’ll spend more time with her and BF before I leave.
That’s right. I only have 22 more days to be with BF. *double sob* Everything sucks. Tomorrow I’m gonna turn off my cellphone and my computer and bury my nose in my books. Study, study, study till I drop dead. The exam is on the 19th. Ten days. I might just make it. IF I manage to focus. Which I really will try to do. BF, best friend and family is very much supportive, so I have to kick ass.
Ugh. Have mascara in my eye. Best friend sent text that made me cry. Man, I don’t know what I’d do without her. <3
Well, gotta go to bed now. Night night.
-MK
OH NO
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IT’S THE RADIO!
They left the radio on the station my grandmother likes to listen to! No wonder it woke me up, they have only instrumental classic music playing in the evenings and nights.
FUCK THEM.
…the neighbors, I mean.
Not fair.
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I’ve now been up since 3:30am, due to drunk neighbors forgetting their TV or whatever on. NOT pleased. It is Saturday morning, and I’ve already done the dishes and cleaned my room. And I’ve been up for almost 3 hours. REALLY NOT PLEASED.
I want to sleep, godammit!! I’m not doing anything until 2pm, and I’m viiide awake! Argh. And roomie brought BF home last night, so the hall smells all man…y. And not in a good way, he has a horrible perfume.
I CAN’T BELIEVE
HOW UNLUCKY I AM TO HAVE THAT STUPID FUCKING VENTILATION THINGIE IN MY ROOM!
IT GOES STRAIGHT FROM EITHER;
DRUNK NEIGHBORS ROOM
OR
DRUNK NEIGHBORS LIVING ROOM,
AND IT HAS VERY MUCH ANNOUYING CLASSIC MUSIC THINGIE PLAYING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FUCKING NIGHT!!!!!!!
Am really mad. Does really not like having my sleep taken away from me. Is thinking about getting dressed and go for a spin on bike.
Some of those bad days.
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I don’t know what’s going on in my head these days.
I’m just really down!
I got up at 10.00 am today, and didn’t eat breakfast until 15.00 pm! And even though I ate, I wasn’t really hungry. Nothing interests me anymore. Yesterday I was planning to “stay dead” for a few days, just stay in bed with music and exam reading. But I got so bored after a while that I at least turned on my computer and checked stuff online.
But seriously, when none of my music seem to be good enough just to listen to anymore, something is wrong. And I have to get out of it. So I got some new music yesterday, transferred it on my iPod, and am now trying to get out of this hole. I’m going to work in a few hours, so I HAVE to. I can’t be at work, looking like a ghost.
Everything is just… crap. My computer has been trying to update itself a few weeks now, only to get to 27% and then give up. Even that’s annoying! I’m going to get rid of some programs I’m not using much, and update all the old ones. See if it’s be OK then.
I also washed the bathroom and my room today. On all four, with a single pink rag soaked in soap and water. I don’t think I’ve said a word all day. And I usually talk to myself or at least sing when I’m home alone, washing.
Anyways. I’m sort of depressed, I guess. We all have those periods where nothing fits and everything is just chaos and confusing. And my hands smell of fish. Will go wash them now.
-MK
I hate my neighbours.
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WARNING: Cursing and ranting will find place in this post.
I REALLY DO.
ONE stupid lazy fucker fucks up the whole system, and it pisses me off beyond what can be explained in words. Just got a warning from the people who own the place where I live. They might hire a professional cleaner to clean our kitchen every week, which WE, who pay to live there, have to pay for! Instead of making that one lazy fucker do his/hers job and take out the freaking trash once a day?!!?!?!?!?
Ooooh, I’m so pissed.
I got my bill today too. The bill I pay every month, for living here. The problem is, they keep sending it earlier and earlier each time. And I get my money on the 15th every month. If my bill’s deadline is BEFORE the 15th, I won’t be able to pay it, which is a pretty big freaking stressfactor for me. And I’ve got enough stress already!! Damn it, why can’t things just…. WORK OUT?! AAASÅvkjesrinebpiaerhpbsiuhpbieugsvpbiagesiupghvfbvseiubfvpiewuch!
So mad. I ate two chocolates today, so now I feel like I’m a big fat cow. Reaaallly annoying.
And there’s the exam. And BF. And my vacation coming up.
First, exam. I have an exam in English grammar ffs. Which means 5 books for me to read. ONLY ENGLISH GRAMMAR. By the 19th, my brain is going to be fried. My exam is not writing a grammatically correct text, noooh. It’s correcting a text, and several other grammar tasks. I’m sort of freaking out, due to these tasks NOT being those you got at school as a kid. These tasks requires me to know what elements there are in different sentences, what they are called, what kind of verb this and that is, etc. It’s grammar, only in so much detail it should be illegal.
Then, BF. Not really much to write about him, I sort of ranted enough about him here the other day. I miss him, though.
And my vacation!!
Then there’s this thing that’s been bothering me yesterday and today. My boob hurts. In April this year, I had surgery, removing 360g of tissue from my right boob/breast. It was something that helped me a lot. The scars aren’t pretty, but at least my breasts are the same size now
Man, long post.
I’ve got some reading to do, before I’ll go to bed. And I might take a shower. Dunno yet. I actually overslept this morning, so the whole day has been sort of crappy. I had to work too. Gonna work tomorrow, and Friday. Ghaaa. I just wish I knew all the stuff that my books say, that I was ready for the exam and just fine, you know. But no. Is stuck here in crappy place a few more months.
Feels like my toes are gonna come off soon, so I’m gonna go now. Bye.
-MK
It sure is…
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…amazing.
On a random page on the internet, I have a profile. This said profile does not tell other people on that very page what my name is. It only tells them that I in fact am a Student, and in which part of Norway I live in. And some of my interests, of course. Yet, even though they do not know my name, they talk to me, and we have some of the most fascinating conversations! And they DO NOT ASK for my name during this conversation. I just brainfarted over this matter due to a new conversation on this very page/site/whatever.
Something else?Umh… Yeah, I’ve started my studies for the exam which is in 16 days. *KILL ME*
It’s interesting info I’m reading, but the fact that there are FIVE FREAKING books I have to read to get the general info, makes me wish that I’d had the money to buy my books sooner >.<
And it also made me realize, (just now, though) that I really should get off my computer and study.
So, bye bye then.
-MK
Omg
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I’ve had the best day ever today. Or, it was the best, but made me realize the worst.
First, I LOVE HALLOWEEN.
It’s that one day I actually look forward to go to work, looking at all the slightly drunk and silly dressed people, and just think; MAN I look great today! xD Since everyone else is either make-upped as dead or dresses as dead stuff. Or cats. Whatever. I actually had a customer who was supposed to be Darth Wader, but couldn’t find his mask, so he painted his whole face black. I had to laugh, because his eyes were practically glowing in all that black, and it just looked sort of ridiculous.
And then. There’s this one thing that freaks me out more than anything in this world; drunk people. Or, drunk men. Women aren’t so bad, but drunk men scare the living shit out of me. Because you never know what they’re up to, and it’s about 99% chance that in whatever situation, they are stronger than you. Being attacked by a drunk man is one of my biggest fears ever. I just do not know how I’d react, or if I’d ever recover. Just seeing some drunk men outside the shop while I’m at work scares me. I’m very close to press the Security alarm just as they walk into the store. I’m just so scared! And I don’t know where it comes from >.<
Enough about drunk people.
I also spent some time with BF today. And realized that he is just the best. Ever. He’s been upgraded from Mr. Awesome to Mr. Awesomeness. He’s aaaaalmost perfect. Because no one is. But hello. He can joke with me. He spent a few minutes CHASING me around his flat today. Just like kids. He pulled me down on the floor in his flat, just to tickle me like crazy and then hug me like I was.. I don’t know. No one of the other guys I’ve been with have been like he is. Which makes me ask the question;
WHY DOES HE LIVE SO FUCKING FAR AWAY FROM ME?!?!?!!?!?!?
It’s unfair! Once I meet this (almost) perfect person, he’s not going to stay here. I’m so depressed I could kill. On the way to town, he was driving me to work, we took the elevator. And he hugged me. And kept on hugging me, looking at the reflection of us in the mirror on the wall in the elevator, still hugging me. Looking at the reflection in the mirror made me realize something that my friend told me here one day; I really am falling for this guy. Even though I know I’m only gonna be able to see him for about another 30 days and then probably never again, I am falling for him. I caught myself sending him a text message here the other day. And it was just a heart. Just the sign “<3″ because I didn’t know what else to text him.
Oh, am wallowing in self-pity, fat and hormones. Hates it very much. Must get new friend-date with best friend arranged. And must see step-mum for moral support. Soon. VERY soon.
Need sleep now. Am going to work 6 more hours tomorrow. Nigh night.
-MK
Sex and the City
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I can’t believe it. After figuring out that even my dad, my DAD FFS, managed to see all the seasons of Sex and the City and actually like the series, I decided that I wouldn’t give in. I wouldn’t give in to the urge of watching a extremely girly TV show. Because I don’t do that! I can watch normal series with humor and a little drama, I can watch Grey’s Anatomy which is a little girly, but that’s a series about a Hospital, it’s action and blood from time to time. I would NOT give in.
And yet I find myself almost through the first season, and downloading the other seasons.
I’m pathetic.
But it’s so darn fun xD
Anyways. There’s also another thing I’ve figured out lately; I want to live alone. Like, my own kitchen, my own bathroom etc. I want to be able to go into the kitchen in the middle of the night, looking like something one could pull out of the trashcan, without being worried there will be people in there, staring at me. Because there always is! I got home from work here the other day, so tired I would have killed if someone stopped me from getting into bed. But I was thirsty, and I wanted some milk. So I went into the kitchen, feeling crappy, and then there’s one of those healthy people sitting there. A good-looking guy eating VEGETABLES in the middle of the fucking night. I don’t want to see that! Ghaaa!! I want to be alooneeee >.<
So, when I get a job and can manage to pay for a good apartment, I’ll move out. Move away if so. I just need a place for my own. Sure I like it here, but.. It’s not MINE.
Maybe it’s just my hormones talking. Maybe. I still want to be done with school and get a good job, whatever it is, and just get on with my life. I hate being stuck like this.
Or maybe I won’t dp that! I’ve been thinking about getting into those schools where you live at the school, and just do something I want to do. In Norwegian it’s called Folkehøyskole, I’m not sure how to translate it. All I know is that it is insanely expensive but OH SO TEMPTING. Maybe I’ll have year of drawing, or photography? Or maybe music? Or even writing?! I DON’T KNOW!!!
I just wish I new. I’m kind of panicking here. Does anyone else feel like I do? About being stuck not knowing what to do with your life, while everybody else knows where they’re going?
I’m gonna go get ready for work now.
-MK
Boggeh.
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Has just watched a lot of anime (Bleach, hence the title; it the way they pronounce “dumbass” in Japanese) with recently recovered friend who yesterday was dumped by girlfriend online. Over msn ffs. That’s how the grown-ups do it these days, apparently.
Well, it’s nice to have him here again. He’s the strangest guy I’ve ever met, but I care a lot about him. Even though he can be the most disgusting bastard on the planet from time to time. Anyways.
Got up at 06:00 am this very morning. Didn’t really wake up until I was home from school and in bed at home. Which was about.. umh… 12:30 pm? Felt like I was walking in fog for 6 hours. Was indeed awful. Almost fell asleep during class, even though I went to bed pretty early last night! Had eight hours of sleep, should not have been in this kind of condition this day.
Awful, I say. Was also ditched by fellow student who was going to come to class today and then have Chinese food with me after class, but stayed home due to illness. Damn you, leaving me like this! D:
Is also starting work-marathon tomorrow. Will be working Friday night, Saturday night and then Sunday noon and afternoon. Boring, but makes money.
Does indeed enjoy making money.
Is temporarily stuck on Kanye West in the world of music. Just can’t stop listening to his music. Is way too much awesomeness.
Don’t know what to write now. Is actually a bit tired. And arse is asleep.
- MK
Ok
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I’ve just ranted with my mum on the phone. Nice
Has also finally managed to get computer to download Bridget Jones movies for me. Refused on first try, but gave in on 2dn. *grin*
Has also become very angry with stupid tumble-dryer that just won’t dry my clothes. And since I woke up to bloodbath today and has therefore no clean sheets on bed, me needs tumble-dryer to WORK ffs. SO! Had to take two turns to get clothes really dry. Stupid thing.
Is now going to dress bed and then take shower and go to sleep after reading ONE (just one! getting up early tomorrow) chapter in Twilight. One.
- MK
CRISIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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THEY DIDN’T HAVE BRIDGET JONES - EDGE OF REASON AT THE LIBRARYYYYYYY *cry*
Am in state of shock right now. Or not really. They’ve ordered it for me, along with the book by Hugh Laurie. Hurrah!
And now I’ve just got back from school. Again. I was at school earlier this day, had class and everything, got home went to town; to library, and then when got home again, received message on phone from school that all my books had arrived. And I can’t wait to do stuff like that, so I grabbed my keys and buscard, and ran out again. Is now soaked, hungry, and has headache.
Will now change clothes and go do laundry.
-MK
Ouch!
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Kanye West ft. Kid Cudi - Welcome to Heartbreak
Has got to be the coolest song I’ve heard in a looong time. I love Kanye West’s music. He’s an awesome artist.
Is btw if you haven’t noticed already, seriously affected by how Bridget Jones’s Diary is written. And going crazy due to the fact that I do not posses the second book. Must rush to library! But not today due to stupid rain. Will finish BJD 1 today, and then start on the 4th book in Twilight saga. Will then, after rain has stoppe…. You know what? After my food has sunk down to where it should be, I’m not giving a crap about the rain, and I’m going to the library. NEED MORE BRIDGET. NEUH. D:
My back is btw killing me after all those hours of drawing yesterday. Action will not be repeated in a while. Most certainly NOT to the same extreme level.
AND! I’ve recently going crazy over this: OTL - Not knowing what it was. I do now have the answer!
O - Persons head
T - Back and arms
L - Arse and legs
- As in a person banging his head to the ground going; I WANNA DIEEEE or something like that. I laughed so hard when I got it explained for me yesterday
Anyways. Is going to take bus in 15 minutes. Bye!
-MK
My GOD man!
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- Do they want tea?
Eddie Izzard. Dressed to kill. I say no more.
Anyways. I’ve been insanely creative today. I’ve been drawing for like 7 hours today. 4 whole A3 sized pictures for my muse. She can be found on www.liadeia.deviantart.com And she’s just awesome. Her art makes me want to draw, so I might as well just draw her characters. That is what I’ve been doing for 7 hours today. Drawing like a crazy person.
So now I’m pretty tired. Drawing takes a lot of energy, believe it or not. I focus so much when I’m drawing, that’s how I can sit for hours, just running my pencils over several pages in my drawing book. And I draw BIG. If I want to sit down and draw, I aaaaalways use A3 sized paper. A4 is too small
I draw to improve my art, I draw for other people, and I draw for fun.
Enough for today. Is in to crappy shape due to period and WAY to much ice cream and marzipan. Will go sleep now.
- MK
PMS..
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…is something I’m having trouble controlling both before and during period. I’m that moody girl. I hit people and throw things around and yell, laugh and cry all over the place when stuff goes wrong. Just the tiiiiiniest detail; a rude customer, can tick me off like he’d slapped me in the face.
And I HAVE to control it today. Because I’m going to work. And at work, I’m supposed to be this cute girl with the small boobs standing behind the counter smiling at you as you walk into the store, being the politest and most hard-working person on the planet. So, I’m gonna do just that! Impress Boss before leaving this side of country for a month. Good plan.
Has taken shower, put on make-up and clothes. Is now preparing for not to able to sit before 23:30 pm.
And there’s this thing my colleagues does, that annoys me more than words can explain; they do the stuff I’m supposed to do when I’m at work! If they have a lot of time on their hands, they start doing the tings on the list that I’m supposed to do! Which I think is pure evil, because on Mondays there are very little customers in the evening, which again gives me WAY TOO MUCH TIME and so incredible little to do!!
I’ll be bored to death! :O
Gha. There’s one thing best friend mentioned last night too. I’ve been spotting (as in having period, but not period. Just tiny amounts of blood every second day) for over a month now. Or, since my last period. Very much annoying. I just got my period, so I’m hoping that the spotting will stop after this time. If not, I have been advised to call doctor and find out if there’s something wrong with me. Which I hope there is not. I don’t have time nor the energy to be sick >.<
Now I’m gonna go try fix my hair. It’s all fluffy, and I can’t stand my fluffy hair. So.
Bye
- MK
Tiredddddh.
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Tiny WARNING! There will be non-sense ranting in this post. Me be dead tired and affected by how loved book has been written.
So,
I’ve just spent the whole afternoon and part of the evening with one of my closest friend in the world. She’s more important to me than she realizes, and she’s just awesome. AWESOME, I say. So, we spent a few hours together today, updating each other on each others life and living. Blabbering about everything and nothing. It’s great, and I wish we’d do it more often
Anyways.
Now I’m home. I’m sitting uncomfortably in my chair, by my desk, and I’m currently hating the internets. Because someone killed www.thepiratebay.com SO I can’t get the freakin’ movies I (as a poor student) want to see!!!!! Is currently reading Bridget Jones’s Diary written by Helen Fielding, and I’m loving it.
SO MUCH.
I’ve read the books in Norwegian, seen the movies (currently desperate to get them in house or on computer) and now I’m reading the first one in English. Will read the 2nd too, just have to get it first. A trip to the library it is!
If I can manage to gather enough energy to do so.
Because I’m off to work tomorrow. Gonna (try) to impress slightly disappointed Boss with awesome clean and sparkling store. Is going to CLEAN like there was no tomorrow. And then try to get home before 01.00 am and then get some sleep. Have a class onnnnnnn Tuesday, about the exam in Nov. which I’m apparently attending to, and is going to study to like there’s nothing else worth studying for. Because there isn’t. Is thinking very much about life these days. Or, the lack of life, there is.
- I do not have a social life; Bummer. Can live without it.
- Does NOT know what to do with life after this year of schooling is finished; Sucks in ways I am incapable of explaining in this written language.
- Is thinking about leaving the country, or move somewhere else. To do something creative. Or something like that.
- Is leaving to visit mum and sisters for Christmas in far-away-land innnnnn….. 35 days. Can’t wait <3
- Has to tell family on this side of the country about plans for Christmas. Won’t be pleasant. Dad will be everything BUT happy. -_-
- Have to figure out how to pay rent when away; Might be a problem. Might have to order it online. Doesn’t really want that. Hmm.
No more lists.
What else is there to blog about in the middle of the night? Love? Nah, there is none. Or… The possibility of it most surely is alive. There’s this Norwegian online site thingie. Like a bad version of FB. Anyways. I has a profile on this said site, and has a picture there. Of me. A normal picture of me. Lying on a couch, with the camera in my hand, taking a picture of the picture in the mirror. Very neutral picture of not so pretty me. But OH LORDEY. Just recently, the last few weeks, men are sending me all sorts of messages! One asked if I was a model, and if I wasn’t, I had to stop pretending like I was. (Didn’t really understand what he wanted with that). Other one asked how I was, (this makes me laugh) and just HAD to tell me that I was goooorgeous. He just had to tell me. And some of these men are actually pretty nice. But I’m picky when it comes to guys. But I’m thinking about just talking to them. It’s online, they don’t even know my name, and the only thing they know about my location, is that it’s somewhere in Norway. In the Vestern area. Sort of.
Mah.
Tired. And I need a suitcase. Because I’m leaving this place in 35 days, and I cannot pack the stuff I need in a banana-box, OR my back-pack. It’s just too small.
Maybe I’ll tell dad that I want a suitcase for Christmas?
And with that, I say good night!
- MK
Allrighty ffs
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I’ve been reading this awesome Norwegian blog all day. Yes, you heard me, NORWEGIAN. Normally, I prefer English over my native language, but this blog is genius.
Why? It’s three anonymous girls talking only about sex. It doesn’t get any better than that. All the situations they’ve been in!!
HILARIOUS XD
And I find myself in a sex-related situation my self. Or I have a situation;
I COMPARE.
And it’s a huge problem for me >.< Because my last BF was really biiig, which is something I actually fancy. And then Mr. Awesome comes around with no pants on, and me be like onoeees. He doesn’t know, of course, but OH LORDY. How it annoys me!! I don’t want to compare, but I DO! I fight my own thoughts more than ever before about this matter now, but I can’t seem to relax about it.
Anyways. It was nice to finally get that out of my system. I spent the last two days at my parent’s house, since my little brother turned 18 today. Happy birthday, Marius! <3 Loves you so much, my huge little brother
So me and Marius were all nerdy last night, both in the couch with each computer on the lap and a drink on the table xD Him playing WoW and me fixing up my computer and the new hard drive. Yes, I bought one here the other day, exited as a child to get something that actually WORKS. And hooray, it does work <3 My little LaCia hard drive <3
And now I’m home. With dry contacts eating my eyes out, listening to a bad version of Mono by Fightstar and I’m hungry. And I have a headache. AND I have a busy week incoming.
Look godammnit:
Monday - Work
Tuesday - Spending the day with friends on Hellvik
Wednesday - School and meeting up with old friends in Stavanger <3
Thursday - School and Work
Friday - Spending the evening with a buddy of mine, watching Bleach until we drop dead
Saturday - WOOOOORK <3 <3 <3
Sunday - BF comes home to mah lovely cityyyy
The worst part is that all this, work and friends stuff, happens in the evening, so I have NOTHING to do from morning to afternoon. Which means I’m practically gonna die from boredom.
But now I’m tired and I want to find my bed. And get my eyes back >.<
So! Goodnight!
- MK
Blargh
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I’m sitting in a pretty uncomfortable position. In a couch, but I can’t sit the way I want to, because the wire to the computer isn’t long enough. -_-
Anyways, as I said, I’m not really comfy here. It’s not my home. I’m sitting in the basement with my little brother, in my parents’ house, and I’m not really comfy. I’m sleepy. BF kept me up all night last night. Well, almost. While he was sleeping like a stone, I was waaaay too warm, and every single noise in the room kept me awake.
NOT FAIR. I’m usually the one sleeping like a baby, but not on this very night >.<
Third world war could be happening right outside my room, and I’d still sleep. That’s how it usually is. But maybe I was too aware of BF’s presence? He was holding me, after all. Holding me, keeping me too warm xD
I’ve never felt another human being have such a high temperature before. He’s ALWAYS warm. Which is nice, but not when he’s sleeping like a stone, and I’m melting away >.< But even though he makes weird noises while sleeping, even though he keeps me way too warm and snores a little, I couldn’t help myself from looking at him while he was sleeping. Such a pretty face <3
He’s so gorgeous…!!
I still can’t believe that he’s interested in me… And the fact that he’s leaving in two months is just… Sad xD
If he could stay here, like a year or so, I would be so happyyyyy……!!!! But no. You know my luck. Or maybe you don’t. Well, I don’t have any luck. As soon I get something that’s good for me, or makes me happy or whatever, it’s not staying for a long time, or someone takes it/them away from me. And here he is; Mr Perfect. Or at least Mr. Awesome. Because he is just that. Awesome.
AND I’M AFRAID I MIGHT KILL MY BROTHER IF HE KEEPS ON ANNOYING ME. *growl*
OK
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Happy person sitting here!
Announcement:
I managed not to scare off BF yesterday with all my talking crap. Because he makes me nervous, and the nervous me talks a lot of crap, hence me being single all the time xD But he, amazingly, just won’t be scared off.
I’m very much impressed!
Over to something else; I saw the last episodes of House MD Season 4 today, and it’s so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!!!! I’m not one of those persons who cry easily on movies and such, but both House MD and Grey’s Anatomy makes me weep like a child xD On Grey’s I tend to cry my eyes out, it’s horrible… *shiver* Luckily, House MD has not the same effect ^^
Oh, why am I writing about this anyway?! I dunno.
Sooo I’m gonna go take a piss now, and then maybe grab some food before I go to sleep
NIGHTNIGHT, MK
I’m trying…
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… to blog more often. I really am. I don’t think there are a lot of people reading my blog, but I’m here, I’m blogging
Right now I’ve just spoken to my dad on the phone. My way-too-worried-about-me-all-the-time dad. I love him oh so much, but I wish he could worry less about me. I’m fine, and I keep telling him so, but he still worries! I’m almost 20 ffs! I CAN take care of myself now
Anyways. I have a question that’s bothering me. Bitching my head around all the time lately; because I’m seeing this great guy, but I don’t trust him. I want to trust him, but he’s not gonna stay here for a long time, so therefore, I can’t let myself trust him.
Then there’s the idea; is it really worth it then? If I can’t let myself be careless an all lovey-dovey around him, if we’re not gonna be serious, is it worth it? If I let myself trust him, and then fall for him, it’s gonna be soooo haaard seeing him go back! And since I’m a emotional disaster, I don’t want that situation to come. I don’t want to be the girl sitting home and feeling bad because the man she likes is no longer here. I can’t stand that girl.
So the question is; Am I single, or not?
He says he doesn’t want a relationship. Well, OK! No problem for me! Except for the fact that I want a relationship. So… I’m kinda screwed.
MK
Ghah
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“I’m with stupid.”
I’ve always wanted one of those t-shirts that says so.
And then I would give it to my “boyfriend”.
Seriously.
Worries
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Warning! This is going to be a LOOOONG post. Not interested, then go do something else.
I’m worried about someone, and some things. Sadly, this someone is my littlesister, in fact. And I don’t like it. She’s in “that” age, where boys and love happened to be all that life is about. YES, I’m a hypocrite, I know, but she’s 14, and talks about finding “The One”, and spending the rest of her life with him and so on. And what annoys me the most, is that I can’t tell her about anything! I CAN’T HELP MY SISTER, and she is really struggling..
That’s one thing you should know about me. I can’t stand looking at my family if they’re in pain. I have to try to fix it. That’s just me.
So now I just want to get my tickets, and leave for Lofoten right now. I have to help her, but I’m stuck here for another two months. This pains me!! I try to talk with her online, but I just can’t. It’s a very sensitive theme, and I’m more persuasive in RL ffs
These things on the other hand, my other worries, is about school and life. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m doing my midterm assignment for the time being, and I’m scared to death about failing. I’m usually very confident in my English grammar, but I managed to miss some of my latest classes due to this new guy… *chough* Shame on me.
But if I pass this, I’ll be fine. I just have to pass this course, and find something else to do next year.
Am I moving?
Or, am I going to stay here?
What am I going to do next year?
Stay in school, or get to work?
If work, then what?!
Oh, I’m so confused. BF tells me that I’ll get it one day. But this “one day” is not concrete enough for me! I’m a control-freak when it comes to me, my things and ESPECIALLY my future!! Just because he’s got it all figured out, doesn’t mean that it’ll happen to me! And just the idea of me not figuring out what to do with my life scares the living crap out of me. I don’t want to become some nobody with no real job. I’m a practical and creative person. I like to use my hands, and I like to work with people, at the same time, I don’t! There are days I should be locked away from society due to a mouth that kills just by breathing. I’m rude. I’m a direct person, I just can’t staaaand walking around the problem, when my head tells me to kick it’s ass and get over it.
I actually took this test a few weeks ago; whether I had a feminine or masculine brain. Guess what I got? Oh yeah, my brain is actually masculine. I’m man-like. Psychological, of course.
Is that why I sometimes think I’m gay?
Anywaaaays. I’m still a woman, and I have a lot of woman-like psychological features. Like this one; I THINK TOO MUCH! Looks at this mess!! I hate the fact that I just CAN’T fix everything at once, and just not being depending on everyone else. I want to end everything right now, or just skip 10 years in time, and start living the life of a 29 year old woman.
It has crossed my mind many times lately. Just to give up. Just die. But then, the picture of my family and friends hit me. And I just can’t do that to them. And I don’t really think that I want to die. I just want to do something, get my life on the track to.. well, the rest of my life! I’m not a good student, I hate reading school stuff more than anything in this world. I’m lazy. I hate to admit it, but I am. Rude, fat and lazy! I’m tragic, and right now, swimming in self-pity.
Did I mention that the fact that I don’t really like to talk to strangers almost got me fired here the other day? Haha, just my luck. I finally get a job where I’m actually comfortable, the people I’m working with are awesome, and then my moodyness almost costs me my job. Stupid moodyness. I don’t even know if that’s a word! I’m just so fed up with myself.
OH. I’m sick of this now. Felt nice to get it out, though.
There’s a thousand more things I’d like to rant about, but I have no energy left >.<
More tragic incoming soon, I guess.
TTYL, MK :]
Bitches and stupid friends.
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Aaaaargh. So annoying. I want to tell the world how happy I am, and then the world decides that I shouldn’t do that online, so the world kills both Facebook and DeviantArt. And they work with the world, those bitches. Fuck the world. Fuck dA and FB. I’ll use my blog then!!
I AM
SO HAPPY
ABOUT SOMETHING! I
DO NOT KNOW IF IT IS GONNA
LAST FOR LONG OR HOW SERIOUS
IT IS, BUT I AM SO DARN HAPPY THAT
I FRANKLY AND MOST HONESTLY DO NOT CARE!
Oh, that felt good. Sadly, I’m falling for this guy I’ve just met. And for those who know me, that means trouble
Anything else?
Oh, yeah. I’m still mad at my best friend. I don’t think I told you this, though… OK, here it goes: This friend of mine, he’s one of the best. He’s just so darn stupid from time to time, so you just have to like him xD
But here’s the thing. Between this “being nice” time and “stupid” time, there’s a time where he just can’t THINK. Omfg. So, his birthday is coming up, and a few days before this day, I get a text. It starts with “Hey, ..(my name)… ” And after just reading that introduction, I knew this was going to be a looong text, and I was not gonna like it. And I didn’t. Guess what he wanted for his birthday, from me?!
A BLOW JOB. “Or more” as he wrote.
I was so mad. By this time, I’ve told him a thousand times; IT’S NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!! But he just won’t give up! So I waited to reply for like the whole fucking day, trying to figure out the answer that would make him understand how I felt about him doing this to me. And I sent him a text, and I haven’t spoken to him after that. I’m still mad at him. I mean, he’s one of my best friends. I do not want to sleep with him, but clearly, that’s not even an option for him.
Stupid ass.
GHA. I think I’m done ranting now
Byebyethen, MK <3
GIGGLE ♥
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My God. Is it possible to be so darn happy for no reason? Is it my period that makes me so moody, or am I falling for someone again? I think it’s a bit of both, really.
Or maybe I’m just happy. Becky and my brother Marius is here, and I’ve just spent almost the whole day with them. Fun :] Even though Marius is sick
ANYWAYS. I’m happy. And a little bit hungry. I actually survived 12 hours without food here the other day.. I just didn’t notice that I was hungry, because I was so drunk XD Seriously. I was drunk this whole weekend. I should be ashamed of my self, but hellllllloooooooh it was so great not being able to think straight for two whole freakin’ days :’D Me and Becky drank a LOT. I cried a LOT and we talked together even more
It’s awesome to be able to talk to people again… I’m so antisocial when I’m home. At school I pretend I’m invisible, and the same at home. Don’t know why, though XD
Oh, I forgot what I was going to blog about. I’m talking to this amazing guy, so I’m pretty distracted… *blush*
So…. I’ll stop here
TTYL MK :]
Yoh.
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My new semester at a new awesome school has just started. The awesomeness is everywhere. Except for today.
Today, it’s Saturday. It’s my day off. And on days like these, a person usually sleep longer than usual. But NOT ME. I think both my body and the wether does not want me to have a nice looong rest once in a while. No sir.
I do not remember what time it was, but I woke up to a sudden noise. As if something fell down and hit the floor. I got up and saw that my big window had been hit by the wind, and was now wiiide open. Allowing my stuff to almost fall out the window. Luckily, they didn’t. They fell down on the safe side, and that woke me up. I shut the big window, leaving the small one open to get some air. And then I went back to sleep.
You think it’ll last? ….AS IF!!
So, for about 6 hours ago, I suddenly woke up, scared out of my bed, because I felt something ice cold and wet hit me in the face and upper body. I got up, and it was raining IN THROUGH my window. It was raining sideways outside, so the rain managed to get inside my open window, and splash it all over me and my bed. OH HAPPY FUCKING DAY. I got pissed off, and shut the window. Then I hit the bed, turned my pillow to sleep on the dry side.
And then I woke up again, 07:40 am. Why does this happen on a day where I do not want to be awake the whole day, because I have nothing to do?!
GRR. I think I’ll go out to the kitchen and have myself some breakfast.
Byebyethen, MK.
I’m baaaack!!
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I finally got access to internet at my flat! FINALLY!! It was just an adjustment on my computer that had to be corrected, and then - Online!!
I’m starting on my new year of school tomorrow, and I don’t really know how to feel about that xD I’m nervous, scared and euphoric, all at the same time! Nervous for I don’t kow if I’ll make it, maybe I suuuuuuuuuuuuck in every class I got? Scared, because I know there is no mood, humor or fighting in class that’ll EVER beat the last three years. So I’m scared of my new classmates >.< And then euphoric, because it’s school!! And English!! ALL THE TIME!!! :D:D:D
It’s gonna be fun. I just have to convince myself about that ^^
So. I have to go down to the mall soon and get myself some more noodles. I’m out of food!! >.< And I have waaay too much money that has to go out before the month is over. *stressed*
But that’s enough. I can’t really think of anything else to write about now.
Byebyethen!
MK
Meh Gods.
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I’m so fed up. So tired, angry and fed up!!
I tried to release my stress in my drawings, but it didn’t work. So here I am. Nagging about my suckyness to whomever has the energy to read this.
I’M SO SICK AND TIREEEEEEEDDDDDDDDD OF THAT STUPID FUCKING SCHOOL!!!!
I, stupid enough, signed the contract for a school I didn’t really want to attend. Just to have an option B incase I didn’t get a spot at the University. But I did get a spot, and I called the NKF (the other school) to tell them that I wouldn’t need the spot they’ve kept open for me. I agreed to pay the registration money, but nothing else. I spesificly told them that I WOULD NOT ATTEND. So, today when I get home from a walk with the dogs, my room is all messy due to me packing, I find todays mail on my bed. Two letters, one fonr the university, and one from the NKF. The University gave me a little amount of money to pay, noooo problem. I actually smiled. But then the second envelope.
I opened it, and when I saw the yellow color, I felt the rage inside me wake up. And then I looked at the number, my hands were actually shaking in rage by then, but the point; they want me to pay for the WHOLE FUCKING SEMESTER; EVEN THOUGH I’M NOT ATTENDING?!?!!?!?!?!!?!?!!?!!??!?!?! Oh, my Gods, I threw the letter away and I screamed. I’m so mad!! How can they not get the point?!!
So tomorrow, I’m gonna call them, ask for the principal, and then his e-mail, so I can spell it for him, how much I’m NOT attending the his school this year, or any year!!!!
I AM SO PISSED OFF!!
And by the way, I think my taste in music has died for the moment. I seriously do not listen to any rock/metal anymore. o.O
I live for music and art, and now my taste in music has changed from rock/metal to R&B and the kind of music you find on Top 40 etc. I didn’t realise it until yesterday, and it actually made me laugh.
So! Now I’m gonna pack some more, and then take a shower and dedicate the rest of my evening to my bed. Maybe I’ll watch some House MD, but I’m not sure yet. I think I’m too tired.I’ve been working all day.
Byebye then,
MK
